People Magazine‘s October 26, 2015 issue features American Idol alum Carrie Underwood’s confessions of a new mom.
Country star (and new mom!) Carrie Underwood opens up about body issues, breast-feeding struggles, and how she makes her marriage work.
She’s a perfectionist onstage, but as a mom, Carrie Underwood is navigating the self-doubt that every parent feels when it comes to having a new baby.
“You feel guilty about every single thing, every decision you make, everything you do,” the Grammy-winning superstar, 32, tells PEOPLE in a candid new interview at the Nashville-area cabin she shares with her husband of five years, NHL star Mike Fisher, and their 7-month-old son Isaiah Michael.
When it comes to breast-feeding Isaiah, she says she plans to keep it up for “as long as I can take it. It’s hard. My supply is pretty nil. We have to supplement with formula. I’m doing the best that I can, you know?”
The CMA Awards host, whose new album, Storyteller (pre-order it here), is out Oct. 23, says she’s more “loosey-goosey” than she ever thought she’d be as a mom — and confesses that motherhood and marriage weren’t always where she saw her life going.
“I never dreamt of my wedding day and the perfect guy,” she says. “Then I met Mike, and I was like, ‘Wow, so now I know what I was missing.’ And the same with my son. I was never like, ‘I want kids so bad.’ And now that I have Isaiah in my life, I’m like, ‘What did I do before?’ ”
For much more of Carrie Underwood’s intimate interview and exclusive personal photos, pick up the latest issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands Friday.
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